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Sometimes I feel a bit out of the place, maybe finally I will find one before I die! I need it. So I am writing it in stone once and for all, I always love robotics, and I am going to set my path to be excellent robitcs engineer, firstly on my own and then I will pay myself a master to do it! It is not easy but I am here to do it. Another milestone for me is learning Dutch, is it quite important in the Netherlands and I feel it too, so I will practice everyday (I know I did not write for the past few days, I am sorry). And the last one but not least I am going to write more posts about important themes for me like pastry, or cooking! which I love, every now and then I will do a post about my little experiments and some other things along the way. Maybe engineering! I mean I am an engineer I will set little projects to keep in my field! maybe there I will find my real worth in life. Maybe if I want to show my blog to my potential employers I think I will have to erase somethings,...
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Hello again! Today is a wonderful day! wow! what a day! is full of opportunities and actions, now that I think about it was a change from day to night completely opposite of what I was feeling yesterday. I have problems in the speaking part, and this has affected me more than I could thought, but I actually have landed some interviews in my field now, which means I have a good curriculum even with a 3 year gap!!! I have to enhance my communication skills, this is a tough issue for me, I mean I can speak but in a interview I show myself like a robot and actually give short answers, I have to improve it by myself and well in a cheap way too. I admire and aim to be spokesperson, no shyness, being 100% confident about yourself, getting the point across just by my words, it actually feels like a dream.

Just me

Hello everyone or noone I guess. I am the tiny writer, that is how I feel at the moment, just tiny an invisible in this society. I created  this blog for the main purpose of challenging myself to improve my writing, and some other traits on the way as well as to get to know me. I am very realistic and well at the moment I don't know if depressed but really sad about myself. I have the privelege of feeling like this, I know, however this doesn't take away my feelings about myself. In this moment I feel defeated in every single way even though I haven't touched bottom at all, I am 28 years old, graduated from an University, and when I had to move to another country, I could not adapt or I guess made a good impression in interviews, so this  have left me unemployed. (do you feel the emptiness like I do?, total silence just nothing). Seems like the worst, I've never thought to be this in my whole life as well as a housewife. This is my reality, I may be crying in a gla...